Nowhere Man...

"He's a real nowhere man,
Sitting in his Nowhere Land,
Making all his nowhere plans
for nobody."
The Beatles - Nowhere Man

And sometimes I feel as if I were that nowhere man, as if I did not belong anywhere. No time, no place, no one... not even me. How can I feel as if I do not belong to myself? I'm not sure yet, but I think it's because my heart is not with me anymore, I gave it away. Maybe too many times, maybe to the wrong ones, but I know for sure it's now where it was meant to be from the very begining.
Realizing this, though, has not been easy nor has taken little time. In fact, I feel I found out too late for the prize has been already payed by she who owns my heart. And it has not been cheap. What remains I still don't know, all I can do now is wonder. Shall this be solved or not, it seems the answer is yet to come.
won't tell a lie, every day my hope shrinks a bit more and it seems there's always a stone ready to make me walk two steps back whenever I manage to walk one forward. Slowly going back despite I desperately try to advance. But for some time now I feel as if this was not a path anymore, but an obstacle race in which someone or something is constantly trying to make me fall while takes my goal far away from me so as to keep me from reaching it even if I manage to survive every single fall... and I'm not sure how long will I be able to run, my forces are almost empty and it's only my fault because I spent too much time runing from what I felt and now I run to try and reach you. But you keep on walking away. 
And if I try to rest, I find there's nowhere to go, so I must stay there
in my Nowhere Land
making all my nowhere plans
for you.
Mine ended long time ago.